So my husband says to me today "i think you are gaining your weight back, i see it in your face" So i hop on the scale. yep up 5 lbs... I cant believe it, im donig this insanity program with shaun t he kicks my ass 6 days a week HOW ON EARTH CAN I BE UP 5LBS so i run into the room and grab the tape measure.. aww much better.. down 3.5 inches, HOW do you gain 5lbs but lose 3.5 inches? not sure, something to do with muscle weighs more than fat? but takes up less space.. or so the professionals tell us, whatevr it is im glad that i was right and he was wrong, OR WAS HE?? i have gained 5lbs... but at the same time im 3.5 inches smaller (all on my lower half of my body, except for .5 thats from my boobs, everywhere i dont want to lose it) lol anyways .. all teh christmas dinners will be over and done with and i can get back on my normal eating schedule , hopefully this was just a bad night to get on a sclae and my weight will soon level out with the numbers on the measuring tape. Thats all i can hope for.


In montreal news, im planning on booking my hotel tonight, if i can ever get my mother down here.. shes going to be paying for the hotel a little deal we worked out. its 8 days in a hotel, ouch on the pocket book.  Steve (intro: my husband) says he tried calling his brother again today still no answer . .. what a surprise his brother promises to do something and then goes awall.... hmm thats not like him LOL YA RIGHT...... his brother disappears for months out of time.. with no contact with anyone not even his own daughter, noone ever knows his address and its like hes running from someone or something or maybe its just his butt load of lies he tells everyone like "ill fly you around in my private helicopter" LOL omg. hesfunny.. but still if you say you are going to do something for someone and there is a deadline but you cant do it for whatever reason you should tell them so they can make other arrangments before its too late... or maybe we should make other arrangments just to have him call and say oh thats to bad that you already did that because i was gonna do this for you... LOL oh the irony in this world today.

So i guess thats it recap: insanity is still kicking my butt, down 3.5 inches,.
                                             montreal is still a go , hotel almost booked (ha) 
                                             steves brother is still a dick.

I dont think I have mentioned yet that I have been doing a workout program called Insanity- from Beach Body, I have completed day 5. Its a 60 day program.. and its tough. The hardest thing I have ever done in my life- I actually CRIED after the first workout during the stretch at the end because I thought i was going to die and didnt think I could finish it, ten when I did i was soo happy that I cried.

So this and my trip that is comming up faster than ever are the two things i'll be writing about for a while.. keeping updated should be easiar now with my laptop.

Insanity Day 5- hard but maybe getting a slightly easiar... one more day and they give us a day of rest. Looking forward to it definitly.

the food is comming...its hard, yah im a little overweight - but I am not as big as I was a year ago, im down 30 lbs and still going strong, 30 more to my goal weight. :) 

ill keep posted.
- laterdays.

...merry christmas, I got everything I asked for. Thanks mom & dad. New Laptop, and Digital Camera. But all the hustle and bustle for what? Its over. 2 hours later. clean up the mess, and go to grandmas for dinner. then come home and everyone is so tired from being stressed out all week that there is no energy left to do anything.  So here we are. its dont. Merry christmas, and next comes a happy new year. 

update from my post about moving to the states:

we leave January 18th for my appointment, we will be gone for 9 days. My mother is keeping my son for us and we will have a stressfree week? right?

anyways when we get back my husband will be leaving and going to the states to find a job, and get settled before we come along. Then if all goes as planned I will get my Visa papers within 2 weeks and we will be packing and heading down.  Thats the plan.. so hopefully all goes smooth I'll definitly keep you posted on this. and my feelings as the date gets closer .  which is it its getting closer and i just keep getting more nervous.

Hey again; just wanted to let everyone know that I'm actually starting to feel the christmas cheer ; you know that thing we make up and blame for being happy around the holidays. We didnt have much money this year so our gifts are small, but from the heart.  Isnt that what christmas is all about?  I do not appreciate the way people look at christmas now-  Oh So and So gave me a present so now i have to go out and buy her one.. NO YOU DONT! Thats not what christmas is about.  If So and So bought you a gift it is because they wanted to.. not because they expect something in return and if they do EXPECT something in return then maybe you should rethink your relationship with him/her.   EXAMPLE: me and my best friend of 21 years exchanged gifts every year since we were old enough to shop.. probably 15 years! This year because I am running tight on cash, I got her a christmas card... wrote a nice note in it. And that was her gift from me, i bought her 2 year old a pack of crayons and a coloring book.. She on the other hand has money to throw around, she got me a  gift certificate and bought my son a crazy toy!!! We exchanged our "gifts" and both LOVED them. I wouldnt have cared if she didnt get me anything, the point was we appreciated the gifts from eachother, no matter what they were.. it was the time we spent together that day, and the laughs we shared that made me get into the christmas cheer!  So there it is, its OFFICIAL - I have caught the christmas cheer.